Learn As You Lose (And You Will)

I am in a love affair with "A Sunday" by Jimmy Eat World. I think i only heard it through a fluke of shuffle on iTunes. It was a serendipitous fluke again that it came on last night as I walked twenty blocks down Broadway in the Upper West Side.

I keep these vignettes as lighthearted and nice as possible, but I guess it's no secret that (we all) deal with themes deeper than lack of coffee creamer, new bars and lakes in Queens regularly.

"A Sunday" was just what I needed to hear. It is simple, maybe 10 lines of lyric. It can make me want to cry, or make me feel empowered. To me, it's a song of loss, acceptance and revelation.

When the ride's done, the hopes that you have carried
They fall out from your hands back to the ground
Live with that
And the haze clears from your eyes on a Sunday

What gives me strength to accept things I don't want to, to let go of the things I should is, the line "Learn as you lose, and you will." I guess I like accepting and confronting the fact that there will absolutely be things in life and times that you will lose, and that's okay... and all you can do is learn from them. (That all sounds so cliche, but I guess it makes the difference when you feel it inside). I just want this song on repeat and I want to shout it from the top of a mountain. Or on the stage at a karaoke bar? Just kidding... it would be a horrible crowd pleaser.



It probably doesn't help that we used to drive to the top of Van Buren Boulevard and look at the winding palms and lights of Riverside while listening to Jimmy Eat World in his truck. But I can lock those memories away at home where they belong.